hey dad

u r the ideal dad for everyone. can't say u infront but dad really i love u n i respect u a lot. the things u used to say to me are very helpful right now in this peroid of my life. i have seen other father doing things but when i compare them with u "fuuussss" they are not even a point better then u.the calmness in u, reading books whole day,i just can't imagine i could even be a small dust of ur's. ya u got high temper,but every one has got some bad habit. may my dreams where not fulfilled let it be dad but what u have given to me,what u have done to me, the thoughts in me are all ur's n my lovely mother.just missing u a lot. wanna talk with u,wanna quarrel with u but.....days passed dad can't be there now. at this age also u r doing for me, that's fablous. some father give up after what i have done but u where there to make my future bright, u were there to show me the way in which i am walking now.
u never ran back of money,u could have but to have good moral in ur children u didn't did that. u taught me how to enjoy in small happy life. u taught me how to that money isnot all..... there are far more better things than money. may be i maynot apply these things in my life but i promise u dad i will always remember that. every word u said to me,every sentence and every word.
ya dad i seem to be inobidient infront of u because i just wanna live my life myself. i want to experience every single bit of my life so that if any one ask me how do u took that decision i could explain them what i have done n how i have done. that doesn't mean that i donot listen to u . i am reading here because of u. if u hadnot told me then i would had never ever came here. but coming here i came to know how big this market could be if i worked hard. so trying to work hard but dad nothings going right in my life. every body's selfish, they are cunnig they don't think except of them self. then i came to know dad the world is like this everybody,every friend's are not like as i have fount in my childhood. dad they are the best to me. i can not everforget them. it's not that i havenot searched a friend but dad i am telling u na they are not the one whom i am searching for. every thing matters in money if u have got money then every one is with u but if u arenot without this thing then u are the worst man. i don't like to ask for what i don't have. i don't like to make other what u call "popaat" but if u don't make them then u r the "popat". shit dad . i really don't wanna stay here.i wanna enjoy my life but i can't enjoy.
oh ya dad i have tried to choose a girl friend too but dad thank god she rejected me becoz if i have know her after than i would have rejected her. then i learn dad everything doesn't matter in looks but i know dad i am being rejected becoz of my looks.
dad i am proud to be ur son. i want to be ur son for time i'm born in this world.
i don't know why dad but now i really don't like to stay here. i wanna go out of here. i can't take this pain any more. but i know dad,i always say to my self that may be there is a new good beautiful world behid this cortun which u wanna show to me. i know u will not show me the worng way dad but if any one now ask me why u have choosen this way i'm word less. i can't speak to them,dad!
ok dad bye talk talk to u later got to go bye..